This has definitely been the hardest day for me in Rwanda this year. I am physically spent (my back has been out for three days). This morning I had to lie down on the ground at the church we were in and I just crashed for 2 hours. I had taken some good pain medication and it helped me rest.
I feel really spent. Amber and Hope are both having diarrhea. Amber is still recovering from Bronchitis. Plus Hope got an allergic reaction to a mosquito bite and her arm is huge. We have some steroids we are trying to give her… but who knows what is staying in her body now.
Basically, I just want to be home. I want all the comforts of my bedroom and I want to not have to deal with all this plus a huge team in the house. Everyone has been very good to us, but I am really wanting some quiet time in front of the television without any one talking to me… I feel overstimulated and basically just want to fall asleep (but even that has been difficult because my back hurts so much).
Today we did video interviews with families (thanks Aaron!) and gave them printed photos (thanks Christina!), and we got 52 in the bag. Last year we took 3 days to get that many accomplished. Great work… I especially have enjoyed having Dr. Bill Gossman with us on the trip. He has seen hundreds of people here and given out tons of meds. As a matter of fact we are out of them!
So, tomorrow I will take it easy. But I am really bummed about being here right now. I want to go home. I don’t know… it just feels like too much… three months? What was I thinking?
God help me.
3 comments:
I also am glad for your honesty Melody. It's good to know for us, to pray for refreshment for you in your soul, each day.
Lynne Ross
Thank you all for your encouraging words. I sometimes can feel so alone here even among some many people! Thanks you for your prayers... I covet them so much. Much Love,
Melody
I was wondering when I was going to hear some complaining! Thank you, because now I know what to pray for! Yesterday, I felt like a shmuck because I was hot and thirsty whilst at a zoo, and all I had to do was find a nearest drinking fountain. I am thinking and praying for you and yours, give yourself a break now and then you're only human! Thank you for being you, and please keep writing!
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