Monday, June 18, 2012

In over my head



We have been at a place of calling out to God and asking him for clarity.  Perhaps you can understand the feeling of waiting on God.  His direction in our life is so necessary.  There are many things we desire to grasp in this lifetime but mostly we walk on a day to day basis looking for purpose and to join God where He is working.

My life has been spent caring for our children and being a housewife.  Almost 21 years now I have given all I have for my biological children. As God drew our family towards Africa, I found myself adopting hundreds of orphaned children and widows.  I told God many times that His calling on my life was too big; that I couldn’t possibly handle the burden.  And I was right.  When I see the faces of children so lost without parents, the women that are burdened with sexual abuse and the starving and ill people that we help I feel absolutely overwhelmed. So sometimes I wonder if the voice in my head is true… am I in over my head? 

This week we received a gift from some dear friends. When I heard about it, I stammered.  I said, “That’s not possible”.  I read and reread the email describing the gift. It wasn’t the amount given so much as it was the confirmation that God was telling me, “Melody, nothing is impossible with me.”  I find myself learning that God is asking me to trust Him in such a huge way in our ministry.  This week God used that gift to show me that He is trust-worthy. 

To that donor, I will thank you from the bottom of my heart for being God’s hands to us while we are the hands to the broken. Children will eat and smile, they will become hopeful but most of all they will know there is a God in heaven who hears their cries and THAT is priceless.  This is God’s burden for His people that we would care for the widow and the orphan.  I am often encouraged by Mother Theresa’s words of advice, “If you can’t feed a hundred people, then just feed one”.  So let us all be in over our heads!